[Solved] THIS SONG CONVEYS HOW MUCH I MISS MY KIDS..

Hi everyone, I hope you are all alright?

I just want to say that sometimes words, either spoken, or written(from me), really don't convey anywhere near the emotion I feel, especially when I think of not seeing my kids for some 8 months or so. Sometimes, in fact, all the time, I have to stop myself from stating their names, when even that action seems almost alien to me, but for my new surroundings, it must be.

I have a a list of favourite songs(as I'm sure we all do), and I can honestly say, that in my top 5, two of them would be by Pink Floyd.
My favourite, has always been "On The Turning Away", from Momentary Lapse of Reason. To any of my brothers out there, who aren't familiar with The Floyd, or perhaps, anything beyond Dark Side Of The Moon(forgive me if you do know it!), if you were to go on YOUTUBE and listen to it, it would be the one with a guy sat on a bed, and lots of beds surrounding him. To be honest, I only ever got into their music from this album, after I heard "Learning To Fly", and after that, I later got The Division Bell. My second favourite of their songs, has always been "High Hopes", off The Division Bell.

Anyway, I just wanted to tell you all that just lately, with Christmas Approaching, I have gone on YOUTUBE, and played "High Hopes", countless times, watching the "Official Video", and this song kind of conveys(especially via Gilmores guitar solo at the end), how I feel now I am no longer living with my dear children.
Without seeing the video, I had always loved the song, but now, now I look at the guy in the video, the guy standing by the Morris Traveller, who is looking into the distance, but you know he's looking back, at what he has seemingly left behind, I relate to this song so much, and the guitar solo at the end, is like a beautiful, yet ever so sad sound, of sadness, and the guitar seems to cry, to call out, to plead, and for a moment, if I could be anything in the World, to convey my love and my life, it would be that guitar at the end, and I mean that with all of my broken heart guys, I do.

My son is 11, and I don't know if he would appreciate the deal, if I told him to check out that song, but if I could never speak again, and I had to find something to show how I was feeling whilst we were apart, when I felt down, then that song would be it. Mr Gilmore, I thank you for your art, and I thank you for "On The Turning Away", which is a song of hope, that inspires, and it inspires me, always. I then want to thank you for "High Hopes", which is really the opposite, and it is sad, and reflective, but sometimes we are sad, and this song doesn't keep us sad, it just relates, and by doing that, I somehow feel represented, not alone, understood, and my cries and indeed, my silence, can be expressed in another way, like this, through song, through music. That guitar is me, like when I was a kid and I used to dream of my funeral, and they would play "The Unforgiven", for the guitar solo by Hammet, I always thought that summed me up, my life, my struggle, my childhood.

I LOVE YOU KIDS, AND I MISS YOU SO VERY MUCH. PLEASE DON'T WRITE ME OFF, NEVER, EVER THINK I DON'T LOVE YOU, BECAUSE I DO, MORE THAN ANYTHING.

S74